I am a writer, an artist, and kinky. I am married. I am a tabletop gamer. I still have imaginary friends, and they talk to me.
I am also bipolar type II with anxiety, and I’m recovering from an undiagnosed eating disorder.
I am an open book.
I created this blog for two reasons:
1) I want to help mentally ill or otherwise disabled people who are struggling to find their voices. I want to help them be strong. If all I get out of this trip to the opposite of Disneyland is a shirt that says “I helped people fight monsters”, well, that’s a worthy thing. I can’t undo what has been done. I can try to make it easier for the next person.
2) I want to show people what living with my mental illness is like. Visibility is a major factor in reducing the stigma that surrounds mental illness. It’s risky talking about these things, for having “crazy” be the first thing people know about you. People have to keep themselves safe, and many cannot speak out. I respect that absolutely. I have nothing to lose by raising my voice, so I have resolved to be vocal. I feel it is my duty, and I take it about as seriously as I take anything. That said, I don’t have the emotional resources to maintain a 101-level space at all times. I am nearly always open to respectful questions, but I am not willing to debate certain things. For more information on that, see my policy section.
I have finite resources. I truly wish I could help everyone personally, but I’m afraid I can’t. Part of the reason I have a blog and put profanity-laden posts on it is to help as many people as possible while preserving what remains of my debatable sanity. If you need help immediately, I am not your best bet. If you can use a phone, Hopeline is good. Here are some U.S. numbers along with some additional non-U.S., non-phone resources listed. If you cannot use a phone, boy do I feel you. You can try IMAlive, which is chat based and good for people with phone anxiety.
If you feel that anything you have read here is helpful and you wish to repay that in some way, I ask only that you do your best to help others. More material appreciation is, of course, welcome, and can be sent via PayPal. You can donate with the button below, or visit the donate page.
Thanks for reading!